heart.mind.body.and soul

when you let me fill your empty walls…
you filled my empty heart
you have made me stand tall
and that made me make a new start
i saw myself as a human being
capable of love and believing
that walls need to crumble down
as my heart ends its frown.
i am not looking for something
but something stirred up inside me
maybe it would be worth trying
maybe i should just wait and see.
you had the key ….so unexpectedly
my walls fell down the ground
like a crashing tidal wave
the fortress i thought
i would bring to my grave
the walls i have long fought.
left me yearning to love you more
and the fear of loving you
has brought me up and back to the floor
as i reach for the pieces
of the walls you let fall
to let me in… inside your heart
inside your mind… body and soul.

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discovering our true selves.

Discovering True Selves
Soul Seeing
by Madisyn Taylor


The soul is the purest expression of an individual and is not bound by physical forms or fleeting emotions.

When we want to see deeply into the heart and mind of another person, soul seeing, also called soul gazing, allows us to see their soul. The soul is the purest expression of an individual and is not bound by physical forms or fleeting emotions. Through a simple art that involves looking deeply into a partner’s eyes, soul seeing can show you a person’s inner beauty that you might otherwise miss. It is possible for someone who appears cold to have a warm, giving, nurturing soul or someone of average appearance to have a beautiful soul. Soul seeing is a way of looking past shapes, sizes, attitudes, and behavior to see the real individual that lies beneath the surface. It allows you to see the true essence of another person, the radiance of their being, and their spirit within.

Soul seeing is accomplished by sitting face to face with another person. It is helpful to first state your intention before you begin. As you stare softly into each other’s eyes without stopping to look away, each of your souls is revealed to the other. Try not to look for anything in particular or seek traits you’re hoping to find. Simply let the other person’s soul reveal itself to you. After twenty minutes have passed, stay where you are and share a period of silent reflection with your partner for two minutes. You may have suddenly seen your partner’s inner nature as clearly as a bright day, or you may need to meditate on your experience before you feel comfortable with your impressions. Either way, soul seeing can be a wonderfully intimate and shared experience.

So little of who each of us is can be captured by our appearance or personality. The thoughts, fears, desires, and longings that are part of what makes us whole are not always written across our faces. Often, the most surprising thing you may learn while soul seeing is that while you and the other person may appear on the surface to be quite different, you actually share many of the same inner qualities. And then there is the unique beauty that resides within that is longing to be revealed to another who is willing to see. Soul seeing can help you experience the people in your life as they truly are, beyond any mental barriers or physical limitations.

source: the daily om




I would love it so much if you take a break

And think of me and how much I ache

To spend as many moments we can have together

Even if we know that we will always have forever.
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more restless soul.

concealed intentions.

the deception of darkness.

crab mentality.

emerging soul.

little voice.

I thought I had lived

I heard a silent scream inside

That I wasn’t really alive

And I might as well be dead.

Said a little voice inside my head. Continue reading

restless soul set.

letting go.
All the art of living lies
in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on.
Henry Ellis

let it fall.
a decade of walls, she let it fall
series of numbness…
she thought she had it under control

restless soul.
Day in, day out… I longed to be completely whole
It just wasn’t enough for my poor restless soul

restless soul too.
But I chose to deny what my heart was crying out loud
It was deafening but I was just too proud..

backed into a corner.
i saw the rain fall, and feel the sun shine over
when i was backed into a corner.

For once in my life, I feel truly aligned
Joy and Peace that cannot be defined

silent scream.
that little voice inside
that whispers a scream
so loud.

For I learned to love and it filled the empty spaces in my life,
I realized I could face all pain and strife…
Never again I was like a wandering ghost…
Searching for the life that I lost.

He who is contented is rich.
Lao Tzu

restless soul



For so long now, I was misunderstood

Stereotyped, they never saw the good

Its not their fault, I never let them see

That somehow, I kept hidden the best in me.

Little did I know I was living a superficial lie

Dozens of earrings and purses cannot satisfy

Different shades of make up to cover my face

From the sadness I didn’t want to trace.

One would think I never really cared at all

Until one day, my world started to crumble

Only then did I realize that diamonds are never enough

It takes so more than that to make someone tough.

The days gone by and it turned to years,

I bought earrings to cover my ears…

I chose to ignore what my heart once said

Be your own person, or you’d rather be dead.

Change is good but leave some for yourself.

It won’t be healthy if you turn out to be someone else

But I chose to deny what my heart was crying out loud

It was deafening but I was just too proud..

We worked so hard to be with each other in the past

I thought nothing can ever come between us…

Little by little, the spark just somehow died

I was wrong not to listen to that nagging voice inside.

Even as I lay right next to you,

we seem so far apart

It wasn’t the same as it was from the start

How lost were we among our own desires;

That we forgot to fuel each other’s fires?

Too late now for the if only’s of the earth

 I cannot dwell on that coz I cannot find its worth

All we had to do was to sit down and have a talk

Or go out the backyard and take a little walk.

I wanted to save every little thing that was left of us

But I am not one to nag…

Although I should’ve asked

I became different from the one you were with

I was smiling outside but inside, I bleed.

It wasn’t only I who started to change.

If only I had the guts to tell you I find it strange

That we weren’t the same person we were before

Why was I too scared to ask?

I shouldn’t have ignored.

We fill in the void with worldly stuff

At the end of the day, it just wasn’t enough

We missed the trip, we missed the flight

We were so engrossed to see the light.

all these time, I was living a superficial life

I wasn’t made to be just a trophy wife

Day in, day out… I longed to be completely whole

It just wasn’t enough for my poor restless soul.


Tuesday, May 24, 2011 11:45 PM

forget the world.


If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?


outside looking in.


once in a while
we search for something.
from the outside.
looking in.


sometimes, in order to be able to survive in our world, we need to have a reality check. most people do, reality check …that is. but once in a while, wouldn’t it be nice that there is a place where we could escape and go to and just shut reality away and for a moment… for a night… get lost in a moment. until such time we could replenish again….

then that feeling of being alive… of living… and living itself wouldn’t be so sad.. too much reality can kill a person’s spirit..

sometimes… its nice to live …away from reality. and be a child once again.




venting out.

i’ve been at my worst the past week. ask everyone. at first, i was looking forward to spending really quality time with my kids… waking up everyday… (sleeping at night) make breakfast and all the stepford duties i did in the past. until tonight..when i realized i havent finished a single canvas in almost a week. its so peaceful.. really… they both have their moms.. but oh my God!! i dont know how i could still be screaming inside. i was so hyped up with my new project and then, nada… all these sleeping at regular hours (abnormal hours for me…) is driving me nuts to thecore! oh, the house is spic and span, except the studio floor..can i just… ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH for a few seconds?

and the love of my life is always getting an earful.. i have got to refuel my soul… this is normal for the not so normal people, right? then i heard this song by marie digby : machine click link

[[Looking around, everything
I see it seems to lose its color
Don’t know what’s become of me
Barely alive, how did I survive?
One day just like the other,
I’m sick of this routine

i need serious help.
what to do? what to do?

9 Reasons You’re Stuck Where You Are

9 Reasons You’re Stuck Where You Are

Life is change; it is forever moving. Staying stuck is a choice.

For it is a choice, not a chance, that determines your destiny. The road may be long, but it’s wide open. As Lao Tzu once said, “The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.” If you don’t like the way your life is at the moment, you have the choice to change it. Actually, you owe it to yourself to change it. But you can only shift your current situation one small step at a time.

In other words, to get through even the most difficult times and circumstances you need to take baby steps, and you must keep on stepping.

So if you feel stuck right now, it means you aren’t stepping. And it’s probably because…

You haven’t taken responsibility for your circumstances. – Too many people have a habit of blaming their circumstances or mistakes on bad fate or bad luck. Too few will admit that their situation is a direct outcome of the choices they’ve made. In life, this is the foundation you need to correct in order to grow. You must accept your current situation, take responsibility for it, learn from it, make the necessary changes, and move forward. Read The Road Less Traveled.
You’ve given in to your fears. – If you’re doing big things and pushing for your dreams, you are bound to encounter situations that scare you and make you feel uncomfortable. So what. Move forward with gusto. Remember that the extent to which we sometimes allow fear to rule our lives is truly startling and unnecessary. Especially when you consider one very important fact about fear: It’s a total figment of your imagination.
You continue to ignore your calling. – What you seek, whether you realize it or not, is the actual feeling of being ALIVE and LIVING your life your own way. You don’t have to satisfy everyone else. You just have to find something to believe in – something that anchors you and keeps you looking forward, regardless of what others are doing or saying. For it is better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody else’s life with perfection.
You’ve become accustomed to negativity. – It’s not what you look at that matters, it’s what you see. The biggest wall you must climb is the one you have built in your mind. If you don’t control your attitude, then it will control you. Negative feelings are like weeds; if you don’t fully extract their roots, they will keep coming back. So take control of your destiny. Believe in yourself. Ignore those who try to discourage you. Avoid negative people, places, things, and habits. Don’t give up, and don’t give in to consuming the garbage these negative sources are trying to feed you. Read The How of Happiness.
You don’t appreciate what you have. – Pause for a moment. Breathe in slowly and deeply. Exhale. Feel the miracle of your breath. And say, “Thank you.” You probably woke up with a few aches and pains this morning, but you woke up. You’ve seen better days, but you’ve also seen worse. You might not have everything you want right now, but you have everything you need to move forward. Life isn’t perfect, but it sure is good.
You keep worrying about a time that no longer exists. – You can’t have a better today if you’re still thinking and worrying about yesterday. Whatever could have been or should have been, doesn’t matter. This moment is here and now for you to live. It’s okay to not have all the answers yet. In fact, you’ll never have ALL the answers. Just continue the journey, focus on the present, do you best, and trust the process.
You keep looking for happiness outside yourself. – Enlightenment is not the accumulation of knowledge; it is the full realization of who you already are. True wealth has nothing to do with material possessions; it is the surrender to an abundance that has no limit. What you seek is not somewhere else at some other time; what you seek is here and now, within you. The more you look for it outside yourself, the more it hides from you. Relax, remember the source of your deepest desires, and allow yourself to know their fulfillment.
You’re still looking for the easy road. – Someday you will look back on your life and realize that everything worthwhile you’ve ever accomplished initially challenged you. And that is as it should be, because big challenges often prepare ordinary people for an extraordinary success. Every struggle arises for a reason – for experience or a lesson. A great journey is never easy, and no dose of adversity along the way is ever a waste of time if you learn and grow from it. Read The Last Lecture.
You need to let go and move on. – Sometimes being strong and moving on are the only choices you have. There are some things in life that you may never completely get over. The best you may be able to do is get through them slowly. But that’s okay. The struggle forward is worth the effort. There’s still a lot of beauty left to be seen on the road ahead.



mastering the art of failing.

Mastering The Art Of Failing     December 8, 2012   Lucy: You learn more when you lose Charlie Brown: Well then I must be the smartest person in world!! If failure would guarantee us success wouldn’t we all be … Continue reading

Rainer Maria Rilke.


“There is only one journey.
Going inside yourself.”
— Rainer Maria Rilke

being geniune.



“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”

– Ralph Waldo Emerson

When we don’t know who we are — or if we are afraid to be who we are — we betray ourselves. We pretend to be who we think we are. Our self image is made up of our experiences, desires and other people’s ideas and expectations of us.

Maintaining this false self is a betrayal of ourselves. In all deep spiritual journeys, there is the experience of betrayal. Betrayal always tells us to adjust our life to be more authentic. What we identify with is all important.

There are large betrayals (e.g., your partner leaving you) and small betrayals (e.g., disappointments). They are all experiences of being wounded for the purpose of breaking down the defenses of the personality. When we allow the wounding and accept the betrayals as divine gifts, we greatly benefit.

“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.”
— Dr. Seuss (via Elena)

“What you must dare is to be yourself.”
— Dag Hammarskjold

Being Your Own Voice of Reason

September 3, 2012
Being Your Own Voice of Reason
by Madisyn Taylor

source: the daily om

How we attach
meaning to events in our lives
has a large influence on the quality of our life.

The meaning we assign to our experiences–whether pleasant or distressing, is a very powerful factor in determining the quality of our lives. What we imagine events to mean will color the way we feel about ourselves, about the people in our lives, and about the world at large. If we want to encourage a positive outlook, well-being, and a sense of self-confidence and even trust in the universe, we can begin by assigning more peaceful, loving meanings to what we experience.

Imagine, for example, that a friend fails to show up to a lunch date. You have choices as to what you will make this experience mean for you. You could allow being “stood up” to reinforce your feelings of unworthiness, you could begin to mentally attack your friend’s character, or you could assume that something big must have happened to cause them to miss the date—then, you might open yourself up to enjoying some relaxing time alone.

If you were recently laid off and are having difficulty finding a new job, consider that you might have hidden gifts or passions that were untapped in your regular career that you are now available to explore. The universe might simply be moving you in a more fulfilling direction. If you have recently lost a loved one, gained weight, lost money, or gotten in a fight with your partner, see if you can infuse the experience with meaning that feels loving and empowering and opens a door for you to embrace life and the world a bit more.

When we begin to bring consciousness to what we are making things mean, we may be shocked at the messages we have been feeding ourselves all these years. Try taking the reigns and begin assigning a kinder meaning to the events in your life and you will likely find yourself on a much more pleasant ride.

Love: The Harmonious Symphony by Dr. Darryl Pokea


source: http://www.drpokea.com/love.html

Love: The Harmonious Symphony

by Dr. Darryl Pokea
© all rights reserved

The sovereign cure for worry is prayer
William James, The Father of Psychology

We have many diverse names and spiritual beliefs that express the Divine. We are all manifestations of the Creator throughout Creation. As John in his gospel expressed, “God is Love.”There is only one kind of Love. As Love is expressed through different individuals in different situations, it appears as though there are many kinds of Love, many levels and intensities. Love is the same and from the same Source in its multitude of expressions.


Love has been segregated, dissected, and disintegrated into many types: friendship, romance, maternal, paternal, patriotic, etc. This reflects the mind’s attempt to reduce, compartmentalize, and categorize love; and this separates it from the heart. Herein lies the mind’s attempt at disintegration. When the mind excludes the heart, unity with Oneness, and the experience of love is curtailed. This is the mind’s reductionism in its attempt to reduce fear through intellectual certitude. The illusions that are created by any of us assuming that our knowledge is complete, creates a vacuum in the heart. The fullness of our being is no longer orchestrated by our Spirit and the Creator when we do so. This is the real danger for all of us when we arrogantly see ourselves as the best or only expert merely because of our training or knowledge base. St. Paul clearly points out this illusion when he says, “if you have all the knowledge of everything, but have not Love, you have nothing at all.”


As we feel the connection of the Divine within, then we become conscious of Love. When we feel the Love within, we are able to give it to the world and we no longer are desperately driven to seek it in the world. With this realization, we also may feel that Love reflected back to us from the world. This detachment is unconditional Love. Our existence and all creation in the Universe bear witness to Love. Love is simply there. We each decide how much we want to consciously participate in it.


Love is synergistic. It is a blending,
a harmonious symphony of our Spirit
expressing itself, through mind and body.
Our conscious participation in Love integrates
and balances our awareness that we are Spirit.
We cannot separate ourselves from Love.

We can attempt to exclude it from our consciousness, but it remains there. Any exclusion sets up cascades of disequilibria and imbalance in our perceptions of whom we ourselves are, who each other are, and the interconnectedness of all the diverse life and forms of being in existence. Any perception of separation distorts mind, body, & Spirit connectedness and narrows perception in a linear fashion. In this state of mind, we selectively attend to merely the physical aspects of this world. The mind, in this limited state of consciousness, views everything as disconnected. It begins to distort by magnifying negative details as it loses its perception of the interrelationship between all things. Any glimpses of the “big picture” are lost.


The mind without the Heart, can deny the natural experience that we are connected to the Divine and one another. It creates its own false security as it limits itself to constructs rather than expansive experience. Simply put, the mind begins to worship itself, rather than experience the Creator within. The mind becomes clouded surrounding itself with itself as it attempts to block the radiance of love in and through all of us. Though there may be clouds in front of the sun, the sun, nonetheless, is always shining.


Divine Love, that we all can participate in through prayer, meditation, and loving intentional service and therapies, does harmonize the bodies and minds of our fellow human beings. As St. Francis prayed, “Lord, make me an instrument of your peace,” we all may be utilized as instruments to one another in the conscious healing of our species. As we evolve, prayer and meditation will become essential to all health care, as guiding expressions of Love. They are just as important as the actual medical or other noetic interventions, and these too can be expressions of Love.


Prayer and meditation are the avenues of conscious reconnection to the Divine Love in us all. A study completed by Duke University, showed that prayer deeply impacted patients who underwent angioplasty for coronary blockages. The study was double blind, meaning that neither patients nor staff knew who was being prayed for. In the same study, another set of patients undergoing the same procedure, received noetic therapy (guided imagery, touch therapy, or relaxation therapy.) The names of the patients to be prayed for by various religious sects, were E-mailed to Jerusalem, Buddhist monasteries in Nepal and France, Carmelite nuns in Baltimore, Fundamentalists, Moravians, Baptists and Unitarian groups.


Comprehensive physiological monitoring during and after the procedure, showed that the patients, who were prayed for by the 7 religious sects, did 50-100% better than patients who were not prayed for by these groups. In the noetic therapy group, there was a lesser, but 30-50% trend of improvement. Perhaps the difference in improvement between the two groups can be accounted for by the principle that “when we let go and let God,” we are more connected to a patient’s real needs, than when we attempt to standardize the intervention. Spirit doesn’t make any mistakes as it guides the mind, and the mind in turn guides the body. More research studies will be necessary to decipher scientifically, that this is the case. What is important from the study, is that both the groups prayed for, and groups receiving noetic therapies, did better than those who received only the medical intervention of angioplasty (catheterization.) Susanne Crater, the nurse in this catheterization study, stated that the results were dramatic enough, “to change my practice. It is possible to bring a calming, healing space into a hospital, which can sometimes seem cold and sterile.”


Everyone in health care, or service to anyone, must realize that what we do to others we do to ourselves. In health care, it is particularly important to treat the patients with reverence as we wish to be treated ourselves. This allows the channels of Love (that accelerates healing) to flow. As the Love flows, then we have the direct experience of the Creator within us. In this way, we are Divine instruments and we become one with those we serve, and realize that we are not separate from one another or the Divine.


As we already know through our experience, and this study, Love is not bound by distance, time, or space. It permeates even the most sterile environments, if only hearts are open to receive it. This intention and some level of open acceptance, consciously or unconsciously, are all that is required to participate in Divine Love. It is within all of us, and can be shared with One another. Divine love is witnessing itself through all creation, service to One another, and in each moment of this,… existence.

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inner child.


its never too late
no matter how long we wait
to tap in to our inner child
the part of us that forget
and let our soul run wild.
be who we were
the child who never cared
but who loved so deep and true
the child burried inside me and you.

let her out and let her see
that the world and life
is once again so wonderfully…
and beautifully awesome!
go ahead…
take the plunge and take the risk
for tomorrow comes in a whisk
… call out that beautiful feeling and be wild
tap in to that hidden
inner child



we went over
a tiny hurdle.
we cant let it
get in the way
of a love so sweet.
you and i…
we can always defy
tiny obstacles
we just gotta try…
and step up high
till we can almost
touch the sky.

lets do the shift…
our spirits we lift
and we soar high
to a love that would never die.
you jump, i jump
and ease the bump
on the ride of our life
….where there wouldnt be any strife…

lets go to the other side
where the unknown is unfamiliar
open our hearts wide
and our love, is all we keep
baby… come with me…
let’s do a giant leap.

i am.


i am loved. i have love
i have everything blessed from above
joy that i cannot hoard
so i try to spread it all over the world.
the world that i am sitting on
will live forever long after i’m gone.
this is all too real…
i laugh, i cry.. and i feel
i know love is all we could ever have
and there arent enough words…
with love…
i am sitting on top of the world.

our world babeee…. 😉

goodbye, little heart

i think i am taking our pet beagle’s [heart] death more than i did my marriage and grandfather harder than i thought. and i know why. it is because i did not shower her the love that i have inside me. i lost a puppy when i was little. and i hold back when it comes to pets… i loved her and i feel so bad for her everytime she wanted to play with me and i wouldn’t give more than i ever could. because i know the dog’s life span is shorter than human beings… my daughter is taking it really well ….i asked her how she is… i asked the nanny if she knew… if i had to make up this pet farm vacation place thing… she just simply said… “i think ma, its better that she’s dead. because she doesn’t have to cry when we give her puppies away…” she’s a wise child. my son, he seems nonchalant. but i guess he’s a guy. i had other things on my mind. the rest of the days ….thoughts about heart come and go and i simply dismiss it. until i got my quiet time. and when i went home and there was no one there to greet me…

i know i’ll get over it. i mean… i should… i am thinking of getting a new puppy. and this has been in my mind for quite some time. but i did not want to get another one while heart was still around. let’s face it.. dogs are territorial. but is it right for me to get a new one? someone whom i could really learn to love like the one i had when i was little? the one i lost when i was 6 was a mongrel. who i wanted to sleep with at night but since i sleep in my grandparent’s bedroom, they wouldn’t let me. and i got news a few days later that he got “lost”.. so i searched around the compound for weeks… hoping i’d find him amongst the rig trucks or at the ice plant that was run down. until weeks turned to months, i was at least hoping i would find just a fragment of his bone… and it is all coming back now. i guess my grandpa gave him away. because he was extra nice to me that very day until the rest of his life…

if i get another pup, it would be just like a rebound pup… is it? i know it is about time that maybe… i should get one and really be who i am and not hold back. be it a rebound or not. —–


my husband and i had pet issues… he used to sleep with his retriever … and when we lived together, i couldn’t take how much he loved buddy. he got him when we were together. we used to take him everywhere. i was a part of buddy but then, somehow… he just sort of taken over my place i guess. lol. after a few months of living with my husband, i moved out of the room… slept in our daughter’s room because i couldn’t take how the room looked like a shop, or the sheets were always filled with mud and dirt. anyway, i loved buddy. i played with him when my husband wasn’t around. i just didn’t want him to know that so he wouldn’t let me manage him. i always knew buddy was my rival… with all the undivided attention. but it was fine. the set up suited me. i thought it suited him too. but… i was just hungry for my privacy i guess. he just assumed that i hated buddy. i just didn’t want to get close to any pet for that matter. it sucks when they’re gone so soon.

then, i am back with my former ex, current present love… (lol) who has at least 10 dogs. but well… it is an issue with me. but thankfully, he isn’t as attached as my husband was… we’ll see about it. i still have enough time to learn to open my big heart before the big thing comes… i guess this really isn’t a rebound puppy. i am just working out on my issues since i have to conquer it, i might as well try to work on it.

i love. not just people. not just him… it might as well go with pets. after all… that puppy i lost when i was a child was the only heartbreak i had. it was / it is the only painful memory i could ever remember of my deliriously happy childhood. —and adulthood. i have worked out on other issues… this i have yet to conquer.

good luck to me. i hope i find the right puppy. or better yet.. i have to be the right master.

any thoughts?

life as a mirror.


“Everything that irritates us about others can lead us to an understanding of ourselves.”
— C.G. Jung

We get clues about our unconscious programming if we watch our reactions, responses, feelings and thoughts about other people and events. Ask yourself: How do I judge or stereotype people? What pushes my buttons? What makes me angry or fearful or sad?

The outer incidents that trigger these reactions in me simply MIRROR my own nature. If I didn’t have beliefs around the issues that upset me, where would my reactions come from? If I didn’t have some internal reference, I wouldn’t react at all.

When outer events spark a reaction, we need to look inside to explore what’s going on.

“We discover in ourselves what others hide from us and we recognize in others what we hide from ourselves.”
— Vauvenargues

Watch yourself shift from the self-centered, controlling behaviours of the ego to the power, love and wisdom of the soul with our Grow Yourself program: http://www.higherawareness.com/cgi-bin/arp3/arp3-t.pl?l=11&c=406037


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if these walls could talk.

if these walls could talk are
wall candies and a
pocketful of sunshine on your walls…. 🙂
digitally handcrafted with love. Continue reading

how i got my love back.

stay with me, though i may appear grown up
i am still your little girl… who loves to sit on your lap
sing me to sleep with your wonderful oldie lullaby
and wipe my tears when i would cry. Continue reading

silent change.[daily om]

Change can enter our lives silently
and this change can be just as important
as change we have worked hard for. Continue reading

true love.

i now truly believe, that we would always have other loves. other lovers, other partners. but true love is deeply engraved inside our hearts. that no matter how hard we try to erase it, it would only scar us even more. even if we polish our hearts, sooner or later, it will still stale and the scars we tried to wipe off will always show. true love is engraved in us. there is no running away from it. because then, it will only leave us feeling alone …in a world where we thought would be enough to compensate for the love we have always looked for all throughout our lives… Continue reading

make up for the soul.

each one of us, our lives are scripted from Him, i know in my heart that if we just pay attention to little details that we take for granted, there is something there that would make us see what we really are here for. if only we step outside the box, screw other people’s opinion of who we are— really are and not what they expect of us.. then surely, we would be able to know who we are… if we break free from our own chains. after all, at the end of the day… we are all that we have. Continue reading

how i come to love the beast in me.


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i am a lover of life. and i have come to love every bit of pain, because it is basically what fuels me to learn and to grow. and to appreciate all the good things that life has to offer…

i think its ironic how it is for me. either i love love or i tend to numb myself

“i would rather hurt than feel nothing at all” – Lady Antebellum[need you now.

“I stay because I am too weak to go. I crawl on because it is easier than to stop. I put my face to the window. There is nothing out there but the blackness and the sound of rain. Neither when I shut my eyes can I see anything. I am alone…There is nothing else in my world but my dead heart and brain within me and the rain without.”
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the desire to share insight.

what follows the self sabotage, are temper tantrums, hurting another, flipping out, rebellious , chip on ones shoulder, about being willing to truly listen to whats being expressed to you, and through you. a complete and total neglagence towards the love of the being, a disregard for all life as it is, and a simple Continue reading