For so long now, I was misunderstood
Stereotyped, they never saw the good
Its not their fault, I never let them see
That somehow, I kept hidden the best in me.
Little did I know I was living a superficial lie
Dozens of earrings and purses cannot satisfy
Different shades of make up to cover my face
From the sadness I didn’t want to trace.
One would think I never really cared at all
Until one day, my world started to crumble
Only then did I realize that diamonds are never enough
It takes so more than that to make someone tough.
The days gone by and it turned to years,
I bought earrings to cover my ears…
I chose to ignore what my heart once said
Be your own person, or you’d rather be dead.
Change is good but leave some for yourself.
It won’t be healthy if you turn out to be someone else
But I chose to deny what my heart was crying out loud
It was deafening but I was just too proud..
We worked so hard to be with each other in the past
I thought nothing can ever come between us…
Little by little, the spark just somehow died
I was wrong not to listen to that nagging voice inside.
Even as I lay right next to you,
we seem so far apart
It wasn’t the same as it was from the start
How lost were we among our own desires;
That we forgot to fuel each other’s fires?
Too late now for the if only’s of the earth
I cannot dwell on that coz I cannot find its worth
All we had to do was to sit down and have a talk
Or go out the backyard and take a little walk.
I wanted to save every little thing that was left of us
But I am not one to nag…
Although I should’ve asked
I became different from the one you were with
I was smiling outside but inside, I bleed.
It wasn’t only I who started to change.
If only I had the guts to tell you I find it strange
That we weren’t the same person we were before
Why was I too scared to ask?
I shouldn’t have ignored.
We fill in the void with worldly stuff
At the end of the day, it just wasn’t enough
We missed the trip, we missed the flight
We were so engrossed to see the light.
all these time, I was living a superficial life
I wasn’t made to be just a trophy wife
Day in, day out… I longed to be completely whole
It just wasn’t enough for my poor restless soul.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011 11:45 PM