there is a deep spot in my heart
that i covered for so long
i tried to leave it behind
and loved only with my mind.
that spot is the only part
that wasn’t crumpled at the start
i thought slowly that
my heart has healed from the scars
when it was crushed.
so i began to close the gates
and held back all the love i berate
all the while it thought the key
to my heart has always been with me.
days passed by and then i learned
to get by and i discern
which road to take, which path to travel
because my heart was strong and well
….i led myself to believe
that was how i was supposed to live
how my mind had tricked me
letting my heart believe that i was finally free
even if sometimes i was looking back
down the road i thought i forgot.
a skip, a beat… my heart began to do
my soul jumped at the very thought of you
i liked the memory… i loved what we had
but the feeling would only leave me feeling sad.
in an instant i would look away
but my heart wanted me to stay
from the memory that left me to question
the life i chose to escape my feelings
all along… everything died.. so did my passion
i forgot all that would only cause me
to cry so hard without the tears
that i wanted so to fall freely
but only to let it wash away with fears.
my heart was tired… i didnt know why
it felt nothing inside…. slowly i began to die
to not feel… why did it tire me so?
i never knew i wasnt able to let go
i thought my heart i had locked
only to realize when you came back
it would reopen so wide once again
just like it then then…
i knew my heart would set my love free
when you kissed me and showed me the key.
for so long… you’ve had it all along.